Married Life

The cycle of giving up and hope is a familiar one.  I read a miserable article on euphoric and dysphoric family life cycles which like all the kinds of article such as those on narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) leave me feeling like I am just a case study fuck up.

If I am totally narcissistic it would explain the posturing, fashion, flitting about, inflationary stuff, letting down friends all the time and so on.  But I figure that I would not cope with the frustration of being in a bad marriage so long surely.  But I wonder if I had NPD then surely after 15 years I would have gone and got the needs met somewhere else?

But then there’s him, is he a case study in fucked up shit?

We must be a match made in heaven then.