November 2009
2 posts
Familiar Patterns
The cycle of giving up and hope is a familiar one. I read a miserable article on euphoric and dysphoric family life cycles which like all the kinds of article such as those on narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) leave me feeling like I am just a case study fuck up.
If I am totally narcissistic it would explain the posturing, fashion, flitting about, inflationary stuff, letting down friends...
October 2009
6 posts
Blues weekend
Got the low down useless husband stupid man blues.
‘Don’t use the kids against me’ he says after he says he’s too sick to travel for them. ‘You only want what’s best for you, what you want’ when I have an assignment due and it’s all planned for weeks.
“Well I just getting some fresh air on a Friday night as I’ve been in all week”...
Can we be friends?
Talking to the step daughter in law about the issues of the grandson’s birthday I realise that another layer of complexity to family life will arise when we divorce. Sometimes it feels like “if”. To fast forward out of these years with responsiblities for children to the empty nest might mean that we could stay together. I dread being alone in my old age. Day in day out for...
Am I always going to be bitter and twisted?
One of the worst things that I hate about divorced women is that so many are so stupidly bitter and twisted. Their subsequent lives are all a reaction to their ex-husbands. They manipulate the kids and don’t put them first above their own shit. These are all the things I’ve said about them.
But now I’m becoming one of them. I find myself wanting to punish him with the...
Fuck you
Yes well I’m starting this blog as I have decided that enough is enough. Today I decided that although it will prove every racist friend of mine right that my husband is a total loser. It grieves me greatly to finally see exactly why his baby mother of the first 3 children is such a biaatch. Well she is an evil bitch anyway but he cannot have helped her to become a better person.
So...